Bitten by Reality

You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends they're jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing, I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

-- 7 Things, Miley Cyrus

I guess the song says it all. Who knew a Miley Cyrus song would have this effect on me? Haha.

Today, reality just forced itself on me. I just spent the week floating with happiness, and of course, something just had to ruin it. Now I don't know where I REALLY stand -- am I being played? All of a sudden I feel so stupid; like I let myself get into this kind of situation without any protection at all for myself. Thus, here I am, sulking.

Yes, I'm awake. I'm fully awake now. He is no longer on that pedestal, I already know the things I don't like about him. I have to spend more time with my other friends, I have to spend less time with the thing that is tempting me.