Letters I Could Never Send

Because I got inspired by Virlynn, I will be doing my own version of this. I think, I need to do this.

Vir, I hope you don't mind. :)

to You --

I'm sorry I dragged you into my mess. I really shouldn't have. You had every right to get mad at me, but as I told you before, you could've just talked to me. I know you're very disappointed in me and in what I'm doing to myself, but just give me time. In time I'll be back to where I used to be. By then we'll just be laughing this all off.

to You --

Thank you. Thank you for always being there. I know everything's getting all repetitive, so I'm thanking you for putting up with me and my illogical decisions. Thank you also for wanting/trying to believe the things I say, and for doing things that you really don't like just to make me happy.

to You --

Thank you for being the voice of reason and for helping me through my everyday struggle. I think I fould a true friend in you. :)

to You --

What we had was special, and it pains me to think that we'll never have it again. More than anything, I just want to have you back the way we were when this whole thing started. Back then everything was simple, and we were together just because we enjoyed each others' company. We're just both weird, remember? That's why we get along so well. I know I've had my mistakes, and you've had yours (even though you won't admit it), but I am trying my best to keep things as simple as possible, to give you what you want and keep myself in check. I'd like to think we can still go back to that, only if you would be open to having it back. I really, really miss you, you know. :c

Limitations

I think I've finally reached my limit. Nobody deserves to be treated like shit, and to be exploited.

If there's one thing I'm sure of, is that this is not just entirely my fault. I am like this because someone led me to be like this. I don't think its fair for me to just assume all responsibility for everything.

Again, I go back to one of my earlier entries. I am not cut out to play the love game. When I love, I love honestly. I do not do things out of malice, unlike other people. And, unlike other people, I have the decency to not just use people for my own convenience.

Yes, I am angry. Could you blame me? Libras have this knack for seeing both sides of the situation. This time I will not use that. Trying to make sense of both sides of the situation will just make things harder for myself. Now I'm fighting for myself only.

Oo, naging tanga ako. Tanga na nga talaga. But I think I owe it to myself to reclaim who I was before. I miss the old Leigh. I'll bring her back.