Yes, I'm very fond of you. Be thankful that I am, because I wouldn't have let that pass.

True leadership means being able to show you're not everything and that you're not perfect. Actually, being a real human being means also that. I feel bad because I know you're gonna have a hard time accepting that fact. You're trying to make it seem like everything's okay, when in fact, it's not. You're not fooling me; you're not fooling anyone.

Yes, I'm complaining.

What pleasure do people get from complaining? Is it the thought of help coming from other people? Is it just a form of stress release? Or is it just because people want to make other people believe that they're worse of?

Everyone's ym status messages are all stress-related. Must be the season, especially that most of my contacts are seniors, awaiting that final day when they can break free from school. Sometimes it feels like paramihan na lang ng ginagawa, as if it'll make things easier for anyone.

I've been feeling quite morose lately, not the usual me. Maybe, school work really is getting to me; something I had tried to avoid ever since I started college. Well, I'll revert back to what I always say -- Hell week is hell week, but if you're a senior, hell week becomes magnified a thousand times more because of the pressure of graduating. Ergo, I am dying. Seriously.

And I am complaining not because I need help (as if anyone can help me. Well, not unless you can write my papers for me. Hahaha.), not because I'm telling other people that my life is worse, but because I AM JUST LITERALLY DYING WITH SCHOOLWORK (and org work, for that matter.)

crush

Two weeks left in college, and I find myself having a new crush. Yeah, good job.

He's younger, and he's not someone my friends would like. But then I find myself actually liking him, to the point of me actually looking forward to seeing him everywhere. Hay.

I've been waiting for this feeling for so long. Why did it have to come this late?

Not just because its valentines

I think, at some point, I have become addicted to pain. Masochistic as it may sound, pain makes me feel alive, like I'm not just some robot roaming around the city. It forces me to feel, as opposed to my default self who just takes everything in without feeling.

This Valentines, I will wish for exactly that. Pain. Just because everyone else is feeling all mushy and I just want to feel something just so I can complain about my life and be emo.

Friday Nights

I want more nights like last night. Far from perfect, but perfect nonetheless.

Patis and Leigh
Piedra, 020808, Kythe Night

Leadership.

7 February 2008

Due to the extraordinary circumstance of this case, for the proceedings of this proclamation, the Student Judicial Court has voted to waive its rules of court temporarily, as stipulated therein.

In the interest of justice and equity, the court has felt the need for it to exercise its power to investigate the alleged failure of one Karl Satinitigan, President of the Sanggunian, to enroll for the Second Semester.

On the 30^th of January, the Court authorized the prosecutors to conduct a full investigation. The results of which are as follows:

1. Karl Satinitigan is not officially enrolled in the Ateneo because of a failure to pay the tuition fee.

2. Karl Satinitigan has, according to the office of admission and aid, lost his scholarship status during the 2^nd semester of the school year 2007-2008, due to having 2 W letter grades on the 1^st semester of the same year.

3. According to the office of the Associate Dean for Academic Affairs, as long as a student has enrolled successfully for his courses and ahs paid the first payment of his tuition fees, then he is enrolled as an Ateneo de Manila student. The minimum number of units for a full-time student is 12, while lesser units means that the student is only studying part-time.

According to the Constitution, Article VI Section 6,

“No student shall be qualified to become an officer of the Sanggunian unless he/she is a Filipino Citizen and is taking at least the minimum university load requirement for regular students upon the filing of his/her candidacy and during his/her term of office.”

Therefore, in order to prevent a further miscarriage of justice, we declare, with the greatest of empathy for Karl Satinitigan, that Karl Satinitigan is not a regular student under the definition of the constitution.

Karl Satinitigan has failed to pass a three-pronged test of eligibility to determine a student,

1. He must be enrolled in the Ateneo system,

2. He must be taking classes worth 12 units,

3. He must, if failure to pay at time of enrollment have a pledge to fulfill the financial obligation.

As such, it is hereby declared that Camille Cabreira, Vice President of the Sanggunian, is now the President of the Sanggunian, to take effect immediately.

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Okay, now, I don't know what to make of this news. So many things have been said about the Sanggunian leadership. I think Sanggu has made mistakes, but at the same time, I believe that the present officers have made significant changes that have been thrown on the sidelines by the simple fact that so many people, or should I say groups, are against them.

I'm saying this not because I'm part of the Sanggunian. I'm saying this because though I'm a "inactive" courserep, I've been a courserep for two years, and honestly, I've seen the difference. I just feel bad that people don't give Sanggu a chance.

This issue about Karl Santinitigan seriously saddens me. It saddens me as a member of Partido Ibig-Agila, as part of the Sanggunian, as an Atenean, and more importantly, as a person.

Of course, people are going to use this issue again as a means to bash the Sanggunian and the party itself. Yes, I'm going to be the first one to say that there was a lapse in transparency regarding this issue, from the student government and the party Karl belongs to. However, as a person, I'd want to keep this issue personal, since it is kinda personal. Owning up to the fact that you lost your scholarship and you cannot finance your tuition anymore, especially on your last semester in college, is no easy feat. Even I wouldn't wish that to happen to my worst enemy.

I believe the Student Judicial Court made a perfectly logical decision. Karl's technically not an Ateneo student anymore, ergo, he cannot be the Sanggu president. I just wish the situation was a little more different. Instead of being on the offensive can't we just understand where everyone else is coming from and just all work to make Sanggunian more effective?

Kites and Love

Mon, Jowellee, Jovellee, and Leigh

Hugging Lucky during Kythe's Let Loose: Kite Flying 2008

Sometimes, a hug from a little boy is just what you need to get back on track. I may not be the best person in the world, but knowing that I made this kid smile is actually all that I need.