Not just because its valentines

I think, at some point, I have become addicted to pain. Masochistic as it may sound, pain makes me feel alive, like I'm not just some robot roaming around the city. It forces me to feel, as opposed to my default self who just takes everything in without feeling.

This Valentines, I will wish for exactly that. Pain. Just because everyone else is feeling all mushy and I just want to feel something just so I can complain about my life and be emo.