You are my sweetest downfall.

Sometimes, the effects of the things you do really will just surprise you. You do something thinking it'll be for the best of everyone, only to find out it can cause your downfall.

That downfall happened today. I was all set on reclaiming myself -- spending time with myself, my friends and my family. I thought it would be fine. I mean, we're okay enough as it is. I thought we had come to that point wherein we didn't need to constantly be with each other just to solidify the relationship/friendship.

Apparently, I was wrong. In that short span of time that I was able to do all these things, I was already losing him. He probably thought I was abandoning him, or something like that. Of course I don't really know. We really don't talk about it that much.

I'm not ready for this, honestly. Plus, I really don't wanna lose him.

It hurts me that I feel like I was ditched. Replaced. I was under the impression I was special; that I was different to him than everyone else. That's what hurts the most -- that he totally ate everything that he told me.

Dress me up Monday

Mom's old floor-length skirt (worn as a dress)
Cardigan from Debenhams
Sandals from CMG
Belt from somewhere I no longer remember :)

Mondays are usually dress days for me. This mean, I make it a point to wear a dress and be unusually girly during the start of the week.

Last Sunday, I found one of mom's old skirts, thinking I could use it the next day. But then when I tried it on on Monday morning, it was waaaay too long, so I decided to use it as a dress instead. :)

Well, I think it turned out good. My officemates didn't realize it was really meant to be a skirt until I told them. The picture does not do it justice. Forgive me, I'm new at having to take pictures of my outfits. I still can't get the right setting and positioning for the camera, plus, I'm always in a hurry during mornings. :) Promise, I will learn how to do it properly. :)

Pale Skin, Red Lips

My mom rarely wears make up. If anything, she'd just wear lipstick, put on powder, and then she'd be all set to go. Mama's philosophy has been just that -- just a splash of color, and you're all set. Simple, yet obviously made up.

I've never been a fan of lipstick -- they're sticky, they taste weird, and you always have to reapply it, which is such a hassle. After all, I didn't need it, as my lips are always redder than usual because I lip bite. (Bad habit. Boo.)

Yesterday, I figured, why not wear the really, really dark lipstick that's been in my make up case for ages, but never had the guts to wear? And so I did, out of curiosity and boredom. Haha.

With my teammate, Aris.
Taken yesterday, June 23, 2009.

Voila! Red lipped me. I didn't put my usual make up on, just to prove my point -- lip color can do A LOT. I liked the bold color, how it catches attention, and how the color sharply contrasts against my naturally pale skin.

Now I know what to do when I'm lazy to put on my usual amount of make up. :)

Happy Independence Day!

Three-day weekend, thanks to the the celebration of the 111th Philippine Independence Day. I was glad to not have to work last Friday, so I declared this weekend as my independence day as well; from work and adult life, that is.

My main goal for this weekend was to reconnect with my old, old, old friends, and myself. That, I think, I was able to accomplish fully.

Friday was spent with Allan and Francis in Tagaytay, talking about squash, pumpkins and zucchini. Typical us. I originally wanted to go to the beach that day, but they didn't want to, so we ended up in Tagaytay.

We went to T House Spa for a massage (I got a 90 minute massage which was absolutely fabulous.), and then merienda at Carlos Pizza. We planned on getting drunk once we get to Manila, but fatigue got the best of us. I just slept the night away, which was actually what I needed even if it was a Friday night, and technically, I should be out. Hahaha.

I had a catch up Saturday afternoon the next day with my best college girl-friends, Vany, Cla and Jho. We had lunch at Flaming Wings, while catching up with everyone's lives. It felt like college once again; having lunch at Flaming Wings. It was our favorite place for lunch, and it still felt comforting, being in the same place with the same people, wearing the same college-y clothes, despite the fact that college seemed ages ago.

We walked around Eastwood Mall afterwards, still talking about random things, just like we did years ago.

And then I had my alone time at Azta Eastwood, where I got my hair relaxed and cut and had a manicure and pedicure. I met up with Virlynn after, and did more catching up. :)

Sunday was spent with Papa, and myself. Hahaha. We just walked around Rustans, then watched this Denzel Washington movie (I forgot the title, sorry.) I also got a facial at Belo (I really, really love it there. The people are very welcoming, and the services very comforting. They really make you feel taken care of.), and had my eyebrows groomed.

And now I'm blogging, getting myself conditioned for the work week ahead. Somehow I feel better, but at the same time, I feel sad. It's times like these when you realize how much you've changed and how hard it is to revert back to how you used to be. But then at the same time, it's times like these that make you feel good, knowing you always have people there around you, people who really know you, that will always remind you of how and what you want yourself to be.

Status Quo

Now I feel crappy that I wrote my last entry while I was still obviously very emotional. The last thing I need right now is for someone to read it and make the wrong conclusions.

Anyway.

I'll just post this --Philippine Fashion Week 09
31 May 2009
SMX Convention Center
Dress from GAP, shoes from Janylin, sling bag from Mango

The photo's not very clear, sorry. This is a photo of me with Monte, my friend's brother.

This was taken last May 31, when my friends and I went to watch Sassa Jimenez' collection for PFW. I actually wear this dress to work; I just pair it with normal black heels. Because I was shopping-deprived, I wore it to PFW. I just paired it with my black Janylin shoes (I don't know how to describe it,) and voila, it didn't feel like office attire anymore. :) Good job.