going off to look for myself

Back from Bora, then off to Tagaytay.

I'm going on a three day Silent Retreat, starting tomorrow. Yes, I may not be the type who would voluntarily go on retreats, but the timing just felt right. There are so many things that need fixing, and I know that only I can fix them.

It scares me; I'm not even gonna pretend and say otherwise. For the longest time, I've used my ability to speak and my voice (kaya ako laging paos), to command attention, to make people listen to me and intimidate people. I don't know how I will fare in the three days that I will not be able to use that which gives me power.

Bahala na.

Like everything I've experienced in this school, I'm sure, it's something I will not regret. (Or at least, I hope not.)