Stitches and Burns

It may be too early to say that I'm fine and over it, but for what its worth, I just have to say.. Yes, friends, I am okay. I'm alive and kicking. Hard. Kicking really, really hard. The days of the emo, sulking me are all over. Trust me.

(And trust me that the more I tell myself this, the more I'm pushed to really be okay. Mind over matter; that's my game plan.)

Give me a couple of weeks more, and I'll really be okay.

Anyway, I have a new favorite song. It's an old song, actually. You know those songs that always sound familiar, but you never really get to know the title or remember the lyrics? Well, this is one of those. If you do know the song, well, congratulations. Hahaha. :)

Stitches and Burns
Fra Lippo Lippi

People say that I'm a fool
Well I don't know
At least I found out
what it takes to be strong
I was dreaming all day long
A drifting cloud
With eyes wide open
I would choose not to see

*Now I don't want
to see you anymore
Don't want to be the one
to play your game
Not even if you smile
your sweetest smile
Not even if you beg me
darling please

Say good morning to the world
I hope you like it
take good care of all those
things that we have
I've been looking for a way
for to long now
seems like everything
must come to an end

*repeat

Time after time
nothing that I can do
Knowing your ways
and loving your ways
But not getting through at all
Day after day
leaving the past behind
Coming to terms
with stitches and burns and
Learning to fly again

Fine, I'm gonna confess. Part of the reason why I'm loving this song right now is because it totally explains where I am right now. The way I understand it, it's about someone who wants to move on, and that's exactly where I am right now.

Wish me luck. Everyday's such a burden, that I really get tired emotionally after each day. I know it'll get easier as each day passes, but sometimes, I just get burned out by the effort it takes to keep myself sane. My brain knows that I do not want to be left there, where I used to be. If only my body could follow the things my brain is saying, things would be a lot easier.