It still sucks to be me!

When I say I like something, it means I really, REALLY like it. Take Avenue Q for example. I already watched it last December, and, because I super liked it, poor old unemployed me, paid another 1000 pesos just to watch it again.

And, of course, it was again super, super worth it.


The feeling I got after watching the play was still the same. Being able to watch the play at this point in my life was really comforting. It meant that I wasn't alone in my issues as a fresh graduate looking for purpose. Apparently, a lot of people have felt the same, to the point that they actually made a musical out of it. :)

At the same time, I recall this exact play being the source of my quarter life crisis six months ago. Back then, this forced me to think of what I'm to do after graduating, thus, pressure.

I was a bit disappointed at the ending "For Now," at the end of the play when I watched it last December. It felt like a cop out, like, fine, there's no way to really find your purpose, so let's just be happy with whatever we have. This, for me, felt like the easy way out.

But now, I kinda got it. Purpose really is hard to look for (and this time, I'm speaking from experience), and if I really want to look for my purpose before moving on with my life, then I'm gonna end up middle aged and still soul searching.

PRINCETON:
Why does everything have to be so hard?

GARY COLEMAN:
Maybe you'll never find your purpose.

CHRISTMAS EVE:
Lots of people don't.

PRINCETON:
But then- I don't know why I'm even alive!

KATE MONSTER:
Well, who does, really?
Everyone's a little bit unsatisfied.

BRIAN:
Everyone goes 'round a little empty inside.

GARY COLEMAN:
Take a breath,
Look around,

BRIAN:
Swallow your pride,

KATE MONSTER:
FOr now...

BRIAN, KATE, GARY, CHRISTMAS EVE:
For now...

NICKY:
Nothing lasts,

ROD:
Life goes on,

NICKY:
Full of surprises.

ROD:
You'll be faced with problems of all shapes and sizes.

CHRISTMAS EVE:
You're going to have to make a few compromises...
For now...

TREKKIE MONSTER:
For now...

ALL:
But only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now!

Life may still suck, but at least, the happy thought here is that it's only for now.