On making that decision

I'm hours away from signing off my future. Jobhunting took roughly 5 months, and after all this time, you'd expect me to really know what I want already.

Newsflash.

I still don't.

And so I'm making this decision to sign my future off to some company that I don't really know or like. I'm making the decision to join the workforce this way, just to get people off my back about my indecisiveness. Crappy reason, I know.

But come to think of it, major decisions in my life have crappy motivations anyway. I pursued studying in the Ateneo just to make my dad shut up about school. Maybe this will end up that way -- a crappy decision that can turn good.

Nevermind that the future still looks and feels bleak to me. I'm getting one foot it, that's enough.