Because I need to keep my memories

I'm making my mom journal.

Allan and Nikka gave me the idea earlier tonight, while having coffee. I was ranting about how I know and remember so little about my mom's life, before she got sick, that they suggested I make a journal, to keep the memories that I have right now.

While driving home, I was thinking about it, and then suddenly it appeared to be a very good idea. At least I can remember the little things, because these are the things that I want to remember the most.

I'm not going to be pretentious here and say that my mom and I had the best relationship. If anything, it was far from perfect. It's just that I've been without a mother for more than three years now, and I miss it. I want something to read again and again to remind me how my life was when our family was still complete. The feeling's starting to get all blurred and lost, especially now that so many things are happening all at the same time.

Hopefully this will help me figure things out for myself. :)